Today was a blank day, which often follows a bad day, but sometimes just shows up out of nowhere. Blank. Stalled. Something’s got to give, things have got to change, but I’m blank. I don’t know what to do, where to begin, or how I would find the energy even if I did know.
I just know it can’t go on like this. I can’t go on like this.
I’m here because I’m lonely. I’m here because people who are lonely in the same way I am lonely have a very hard time finding each other. .
Being hearing impaired / deaf is lonely.
Having bipolar disorder is lonely.
Being an undergraduate student in your mid-thirties is lonely.
Being a Biblical Studies major is lonely.
Being infertile is lonely.
And even though it shouldn’t be, being desperately in love with God is sometimes the loneliest feeling there is.
So there it is. I’m dropping any attempt to be slick or intellectual or one of the cool kids. I’m just here to share the things I struggle with, the things I’m trying to understand and the things I am learning.