I am so homesick today. Looking through old photos of the last few years just makes me feel worse. I don’t know where I want to be… I just want to be back there somewhere. I want to be that person again, and save myself from all the mistakes I was about to make.
And to save everyone else from theirs.
I’m here because I’m lonely. I’m here because people who are lonely in the same way I am lonely have a very hard time finding each other. .
Being hearing impaired / deaf is lonely.
Having bipolar disorder is lonely.
Being an undergraduate student in your mid-thirties is lonely.
Being a Biblical Studies major is lonely.
Being infertile is lonely.
And even though it shouldn’t be, being desperately in love with God is sometimes the loneliest feeling there is.
So there it is. I’m dropping any attempt to be slick or intellectual or one of the cool kids. I’m just here to share the things I struggle with, the things I’m trying to understand and the things I am learning.